I take two painkillers each morning in the hope that it will help heal the gaping hole in my chest. In the hope that it will take away all the lies and pain that I feel.
I think of shooting stars so that you will be erased from my memory, because you have done nothing but give me false hope and a life that turned out to be not real.
You treated me like a queen, only to leave my apartment and forget about me.
You loved me in my apartment, on our dates, during trips to the mall on weekends, and then you lied, deceived and betrayed me, without even hiding it. You never cared about me, you never loved me, and I just want you to disappear from our little town, from my life and from my head - forever.
I also take two painkiller pills every night because at this time I think about you the most. After a few glasses of wine, when I stare at the ceiling and can't fall asleep, my mind begins to fill in thoughts of you.
At night I sometimes want you to come and say that you wish you could change, that you really loved me.And sometimes I remember what went wrong, I wonder how we could be so naive, not realizing this for several months.
You are the human embodiment of the word "hate" because I hate you because I feel so pathetic because of you, although I know that I deserve much better.
I am sure that one day I will wake up, and my gaping heart will be healed, and your memories will disappear. Know that I pray that this day will come as soon as possible, because more than anything I just want to forget you.
You will be the lesson that I will teach my future daughter. I will tell her to shun such double-faced men.